the only thing we can count on
May 25, 2017

Ahhhh.....the winds of change are blowing again.  And once again I find myself resistant, frustrated, and even a little bit mad!  I do wish that I could truly embrace the maxim "The only thing we can count on is that everything will change",  but every time change happens, my first response is to resist.

 Again, I look to the horses for guidance.  What do they do when their environment changes?  Most often they look around, assessing their new digs by exploring, sniffing, and moving around the space.  And then, usually, they start looking around for something to eat.  Then they 'go back to grazing' as my mentor Sheri Gaynor taught me.   There's no, "OMG!  Why did this happen?  What's wrong with me?  I thought my last paddock/barn/trailer ride/horse show was going to last forever!"  Hmmmm.  What a concept.  Doing a weekend workshop with her was the second step I took 4 years ago on this new journey of mine with the horses.  Read about her inspiring work on her website http://www.creativeawakeningsinternational.com

Settling in for Horse Camping

 
As I wrote that, it dawned on me how I certainly DON'T want whatever is going on in my life to be 'my last'.  I actually do want to experience new places and new people, new situations and new challenges.  Those are the things that energize me and keep me excited about life.  A good friend told me long ago "I'd rather be green and growin than ripe and rotten!"  When things start getting entrenched to the point where it might be the last time I'm ever doing something, that means my life is winding down.  I'm too young for that!  I want to embrace life to the fullest because I know I'm only going to go around one time.   Losing several people that I love has taught me that.




 

So, universe,
thank you for this change.  Instead of being frustrated and looking at it as a defeat, I choose now to see it as the horses would.....just another stop along the way.  And then I guess I'll go back to grazing.

Postscript on this post:  the funny thing is, I can't even remember what change was going on in May 2017 that inspired me to write this post!!  I'm sure it felt really important at the time :)